Interpreting the motives behind Christianity?

I am a born again Christian and I will only talk for myself on this one because I only know my own motives as a Christian. First of all Christianity has changed since the first Christians that walked the Earth,which were Jesus' disciples. I am so upset with the way the world has changed what it really means to be a Christian. Now and throughout history people have hid behind the covering of Christianity. Because of them God has been misrepresented. When I rededicated my life to Christ I was so ashamed to call myself a Christian because of what society has turned it into. Now there are Christians that use the title to sin and make money. But,I am now proud to be a Christian because after talking to the Lord and reading His Word I know this is the Big Falling Away that He talks about in the Bible. I too use to think that it was just a book with man's ideas in it. The Lord loving pointed out to me that it is His breathed Word and when I denied the Holy Bible I was denying Him. Jesus Christ is the Word in the flesh. The Holy Bible has been translated into many languages and is old but that doesn't change the fact that the Holy Bible is Jesus Christ. I use to say I wished we were born with instructions. He pointed out to me that His Word is meant to be our life manual. Jesus is not interested in religion and rituals because it takes away our focus on our relationship with Him. He talks to His sheep in many ways. Through His Word, through the Holy Spirit, through dreams, visions, prophets, missionaries, angels and each other. Some have even heard an audible voice. I have never heard His audible voice and want to. But, He does give me clear messages. One of them was if I stayed in His word He would reveal more to me. He has stayed true to that. For everything God does Satan has a counterfeit for it. So my intentions as a Christian is to serve the Lord and let His light shine through me. If I wouldn't do it in front of Jesus, if He was visibly in front of me, I don't do it or say it. I stumble because I am human and far from perfect but Jesus is there to pick me up and help me get back on track. When I say stumble I mean mistakes. I do my best and stay aware of what He is teaching me. I know now that the Bible is not just a book. It is Jesus Christ and that is why when I tried to read it and understand the message with my own human understanding I failed and got frustrated. Only through the Holy Spirit do we have understanding of His messages. He also made me realize that if people discovered another book that was written that long ago and it was not about God it would be accepted right away. The only reason society doubts the validity of His Word is because it is from God. Society will always jump on anything that has to do with God and try to prove or disprove its authenticity.When they found Nostradamus' notes they accepted it as his work and left it alone. Anything that has to do with God is questioned. God has not changed. He is the same as He was yesterday, today and tomorrow. People and society changes and accepts things that satisfies themselves. There is no regard for God anymore. People say,"if it makes you happy go for it". It doesn't work that way in God's eyes. He is very clear about that in His Word too. We need to be concerned with how God views something and society. Everyone on this Earth will die and be judged by God. But, God will get the last word. Hope this helps. God bless. Feel free to email me.